::lull::

it's shortly after 5 and i'm feeling like a lump. after last night on ai, i've kind of slumped around all day feeling sorry for myself, considering all the work i've done to make my site shine and be all "go judd!". i'm no expert when it comes to coding: more of a hack, really. so i cut and paste my template into notepad and toggle back and forth between blogger previews and lines upon lines of text. i really should get dreamweaver, josh says, but i guess i's just lazy.

so, american idol is in it's fourth season, and some folks said farewell to us last night. i'm furious about the way judd was let go at the end of the show. whatever the motive behind the producers' decision to cut the show in such a way as to lead us to believe that the bottom row of "boys" was safe, and then announce "judd, you're out" was unbelievably heartless. seacrest, you're not The Donald, so stop coming off like you're sending contestants "down to the street"! reality shows have certainly got out of hand, but america's watching and fox got their ratings, so the big wigs are coddled and that's what counts, right?

those feelings aside, one has to understand just how extraordinarily difficult it is to make it in the music industry. there are a ton of talented musicians out there and only a handful who successfully land a record deal. believe me, i've watched trespassers william struggle up the ladder for seven years now, and they're no where near household name status. on the other hand, they've got a record deal, anna-lynne sang on a track from the latest chemical brothers album, and the band has their own page in the itunes store! hel-LO! i have to say, IF anna-lynne auditioned for american idol, i don't think she would have made it as far as judd. saying that has absolutely nothing to do with her amount of talent, rather, the objective of a tv show and the "mainstream" tastes of americans (those who voted for ai). i digress....

in the words of peter gabriel, "don't give up".