::remembrance::

it's time to ready for work, but not without a quick flash-back friday event. sifting through a box of cassette tapes (cassetty whatty?) i came across some pretty amusing things. not only my old high school mix tapes, but ones made for a trip to las vegas, one for my friends' band woodface, and a tape of me playing piano. the description reads:

Engineered & performed by Sara
Parker on 12/28/94

Phantom Medley, Webber *arr, by Sara
Concerto no. 3 in D Major Kabalevsky
Fur Elise, Beethoven
St. Elmo's Fire, Foster
Etude No. 2 in g minor, Moszkowski
Piano Piece in b minor, Berg
Fantasia, Bach, C.P.E.
All I Ask of You, Webber
Music Box Dancer, Frank Mills
Remembrance, Parker

and if i recall, my parents made me record this tape. and i think i did it rather begrudgingly. but, 11 years later, all i can think is "wow, i could really play!" and in the split second i type that, i sadly note that i am speaking in the past tense and how much that bothers me. so much so that i think i'm almost ready to give up neopets altogether (sorry mom!) in order to pursue this desire in my heart to write and play piano and knit and cook and clean and study and exercise (among other things). how much does the heart crave these things? how much is it going to take? how much regret before there's no reversing the pattern i've begun to set in my lazy ways? i could, after all, be a fantastic human being, not constantly parked on my butt in front of the computer, tapping and clicking and headachy and red-eyed and brainlessly bored to tears with unstimulation. there is so much more to this life! get up! get moving! get gone!

these admonishments are personal, you know, but is there something in your life that you just want to tear apart for the sheer laziness of it? i think we've all got our achilles heel. get after it!